I know a preacher through another friend of mine. I have not seen the preacher in long while. He came to see me the other day and started talking to me about our friend. He brought up the past and talked about “reaping what we sow” and when we “sin” we will be punished. Indicating this other friend is being punished for past transgressions. All the while I listened to him and thought about the fire and brimstone preaching. Yet this preacher was married found another woman impregnated her and divorced his wife later. A sin???? Will he reap what he sowed?? I thought about all he said and realized he needs the prayers for his heart does not hold forgiveness and love and that is what is the true sin for we all need to give our brothers the opportunity to move on to a greater ground and always give them our support. It does not matter who you are it is what you are made of that really counts!!! Jesus does not give recipes that show the way to God as other teachers of religion do. He is himself the way. Karl Barth

I work in a business where I am surrounded by caregivers and care takers. I have attended seminars and worked with families who are in need of support in some way. I was usually able to disconnect myself to be able to help them and it always worked. There are times when you take it home with you but you move on. All of a sudden I have been thrust into the world of being a caregiver. I have written a little about this subject since this has started to happen for me in late January. I knew when I found out my ex husband had cancer and that is was aggressive that this could be bad but somehow it did not seem real. We had our share of anger but remained friends. So when this happened of course I helped him.Now less than 4 months later it has affected his total mobility. Tonight I went to his house to bring his dinner and clean up when I found myself cleaning his hands and face after dinner like he was a baby. I then had to help him up and sit him down in his chair and that is when he started to cry. I dried his tears and hugged him and then we moved on to me putting all the things he needed around him for him to go on another night. I realized as you are doing these chores it is like you disconnect your emotion to do what is needed to be done but there are times …like tonight…where you get into your car and start to cry for what has passed and for what is coming. You hold on tight to your beliefs and pray for his strength and your strength to pull you through this and just hope …that you can wake up from this nightmare in tact……. It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light. Aristotle Onassis

People tend to use the word “love” too freely. I love that dress I love that group .Do you really love these things and the people we say we love? Or is it liking for the moment or loving for the moment? Do we know what love really is? I myself have started to wonder if I know what love truly is………. We all have read the novels and I have been waiting for that hero an entire life time but is that love?? Is being with that special person and just living your life and standing by each other real love?? I think we all need to sit back and take inventory of our lives from time to time and see the love that is truly all around us.. Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes… just be an illusion. Javan

One day at a time………….a friend of mine has been diagnosed with an aggressive cancer and I have been helping him. It has been very hard for him because he has lost a lot of his mobility and he was just told 3 months ago he had cancer so it is moving rapidly. We try to keep cheerful and not talk about the future because it is too scary. When we were younger we would always talk about what we would be doing in the next 10 years. I know him since I was 18 and he was 19 now we are both in our 50’s. I was talking to him tonight about the next course of treatment and we started talking about how this treatment would affect his long term health and we touched upon the subject of the survival rate on this cancer. When he first received the news he kept asking “ how long will I live” ……tonight he said we can only take one day at a time any longer would be too hard and not realistic…….. I thought he had come very far from the kid I knew who wanted to know what he would be doing in the next 20 years. Life is so much better when you live in the moment and not worry about tomorrow because it will either be around the corner or not but we cannot change its course Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment. Buddha